I'm head over heels in
love again and I never felt so strongly for someone for a long time.
First Love
I felt the
sweetness and bitterness of first love when I was in high school and
fell madly in love with someone -- and yes, I've been secretly in love
with him long even after we broke up. I have been in and out of
different relationships and have seen my first love fall for someone
else yet it never changed what I felt towards him. We met a couple of
times and declared our love for each other which has always been
there and has never left us yet chose to remain friends due to the
circumstances and because we both have separate lives in the arms of
our present lovers.
The Past
All along I
thought everything was going just the way I planned it but things
turned sour without my anticipation. All my dreams and plans
shattered right before me. I was lost and didn't know what to do with
my life when my boyfriend for 8 long years and I broke up. I was back
from scratch and was horrified at the thought of starting all over
again. I was ruined I thought, but it was actually the perfect
moment. In truth, I wasn't totally in love with the last boyfriend I
had. It started all wrong. He only became my comfort zone and I
didn't want a long relationship like that to just end. I found myself
in a mess, spending and partying just to forget. But it was at that
lowest point of my life that I found you.
You –
My Present & My Future
I've known
you for a year since we were wave mates. We've talked a lot of times
and shared each others' problems in the past, that's why talking to
you about what happened to me was easy. You listened and comforted
me. You allowed me to pour everything out and saw me cry many times. We then became closer to each other day by day and I was
really happy to have found a friend in you. You came just when I
needed you. I listened to your advice and was amazed to know how deep
you are, and since then I have looked up to you like an older
brother. Little did I know that our friendship would turn into
something more beautiful like what we have now. You gave my life a
new direction and made everything clear for me. You brushed away my
fears and helped me create new dreams in life with you in it. I never really thought that I could love someone as much as I love you and right
beside you is definitely where I'd like to be. Now that we have each other, I will love you in the
best way I know “buki” my love. Thank you for being you coz I love
you just the way you are.
Looking
back, I'm simply thankful to God for giving me you. I feel so blessed
to finally meet that one person who I would like to spend the rest of
my life with – YOU!